thoughts read unspoken, forever and now.
the pieces of memories fall to the ground.
i know what i did and how so, i wont let this go.
'cause its true. i am nothing without you.

i hate how you have so much control over me. i would do anything you asked me to do. just because you are you. and that scares me. how can i be me when i am so obsessive over you.

i truely cant go to school. they cant make me. it will break everything thats perfect. it will ruin all the happy thoughts and dreams. it will ruin me. that just cant happen anymore. i need to be strong. i need to be strong for my little brother. and for my family thats falling apart. because i love them. no matter how much they break my heart they are here for me. i can never repay them properly for that.

im happy. then i am sad. then i am happy. then im sad. and i never understand if this is who i really am.. or its who im pretending to be.i wissssshh i could move. i dont think i have ever wanted anything more.

how did we get here? i used to know you so well.