And just like that, my whole world went up in flames.

GLASSEES

I would like to have a tea party, with the people that mean to most to me. and the people that make me giggle. because smiling and being with people that mean anything to me, deserve to be with me forever. but to tell the truth, not many people will be in my life, forever.

I am not beautiful. I dont always have a smile on my face, and i am so much work. I am hurting more then i am helping, and i hate the way i lie for others. My friends break my heart on a regular basis and i am broken every day. My family is insane and they live like there is nothing wrong when really, our world makes no sense. But i am smart and strong. I dont listen to what people tell me to say or who to be friends with. I dont hurt myself or swear at home, i am a role model for my younger brother. I love my family no matter what they do, i really cant help it. And when i smile, i smile for a reason. Not because you made a funny joke. But the look in your eyes when you made it. The look that you needed me to laugh, because you wanted to laugh so badly. Thats why i smile. I smile because when my true friends are around the world is suddenly a better place, and when you walk through the door and i see you, i just cant help it. One day i will do what i want to do. And i will smile every day and come home and smile all the more. Because i want to. Not for you. For once, it will be for me.

and so the heart sped, the love bleed, every thought ran through my head. Where was i going and what will i do, when i walk away from you. i will be strong, and keep walking on, though each step feels so wrong. My love for you will always be, but sometimes life isn't that easy.

Yes, well, probably the cutest thing i have seen in ages. Yumm.

I dont care any more. I really dont care. Truely i dont. Right now, you just annoy me. I will move and you really wont matter. So whatever, bitch behind my back. Tell people i lie and cheat. Be completely hypocritical. You are the only one it's effecting. You and only you. I hope you have a great life.