i wish everything would stop. and i could run away. and never come back.

i just want to run away, and never look back.

i cant wait untill this stupid school is finished with me.

i hate it there.

well, at least, i hate what it's turned me into.

new york, please hurry. i dont know how much longer i can take it.

NEED.

i dont think you know how much i hate it, when you are nice to my face. and a complete bitch behind my back.

i know no one cares. it hurts. so much. all the time.
sometimes, i just want to fade away. forever.

I am not beauitful in the slightest. I dont have, regretably, desighner clothes, but i am as individual as i can be.

STOP TELLING ME STUPID, PATHETIC, INCOHERENT, UNINTELLIGENT LIES

It's always been you. Idiot. Always. In my dreams, in my head. Suffocating me, killing me, all the time. I hate you. At least, i wish i did.

i love harry potter. it makes me happy no matter how i am feeling. but, out of everyone, i love ron the most.

...and then it all happened. all at once. everything and everyone that ever meant anything to me meant more then life yet less then love. and my mind blanked and i thought i was going to die. i knew i was going to die. i just didn't know when.

Dont ask me why. or what runs through my head.i have asked myself that at least a million times. all i know is when i see them together. looking the way they do towards each other i get this rush of hope. this feeling like no one is perfect. no relationship will always be amazing. but that doesn't mean it wont take your breathe away.

I WANT THIS!!

i want to go all out.

Im doing what i want, because i can.
I wish guys would take an intrest in me. everyone knows that wont happen. i just need faith, to believe things will only get better..

Im changing everything!
I am changing myself, my thoughts, my happiness.. Even the name of this blog.
I will make myself a happier person, and stop caring about other peoples perceptions of me. I will become a better person. Any one that gets in my way, will have another thing coming.

The only people that keep me going..

GET OUT OF MY HEAD YOU STUPID PERSON! I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YOU RUIN EVERYTHING! just because i smile doesn't mean like you. i smile, because in my head, you are dying in a hole..